I believed in Truth. In black and white. Right and wrong.
I was awkward with girls, innocently arrogant, and had some talent.
I thought I was smart and cool, but actually, I was a pain in the arse.
When I was at Uni, I knew more, but knew it wasn't everything.I believed in Perceptions of truth. In shades of grey. In morality.
I was awkward with women, less arrogant, but with plenty of talent.
I thought I was smart and cool, but actually, I was a pain in the arse.
While I write this, I'm comfortable that I truly know very little.
I believe in Honesty, and let others worry about what that means.
It turns out that life is a chaotic spectrum of interconnected things.
I'm awkward with most folk, a bit arrogant, and still have talent.
I'm still not smart and cool, but I'm a decent enough fella.
Okay, and sometimes I'm a pain in the arse.
Indigo
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Captain's Blog - Supplemental
My original parting shot for today’s post was, I wonder what I’ll believe in ten years time?
This reminded me - in that insidious, guilty way that unfinished tasks do when you’ve been ignoring them to play FF13 for a while - that my unhinged amigo, Scott Free over at Ergo, tagged me the other day.
He asked me, Where will you be in ten years time?
Hmmm. Okay, here goes:
1) I’ll be here, or hereabouts.
2) I’ll be working for myself (the hours are better, or at least mine).
3) My first book will have done modest business to good reviews.
4) I’ll be on a signing tour for my breakthrough second book.
5) I’ll have a hulking “security consultant” to keep the weirdos away.
6) I’ll still be hanging about with iDifficult, eating curry and pizza.
7) I’ll still be in good health, despite Life’s best attempts.
8) I’ll still be close to everyone that I love.
9) I’ll have a relaxed and raunchy sex life again. Hey, I can dream.
10) I’ll be happy.
I’m supposed to tag some folk with this, but this one’s been doing the rounds for a while, and I've no idea who’s had it already. But if you like this kind of thing and want to play along, consider yourself tagged. It’s been an interesting exercise. I now have a To Do list. Thanks, Scott!
Oh, and for those who are clamouring for news of my dietary success, I’ve now lost twenty eight pounds. Fourteen to go.
Indigo
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What's most refreshing is that you are consistant.
ReplyDeleteConsistantly a talented pain in the arse.
:-)
I love pain the arses. Did I ever tell you that?
I'm enjoying (okay sometimes they are pains in the arse,) watching my two sons, almost 17 and 15 grow up, wondering with hope what they will turn out like as men. Love your photos.
ReplyDeleteI hear where you're coming from on the pain-in-arse-ness thing.....
ReplyDeleteHey Nancy! No, you never did tell me! Man, we should totally get together sometime. It'd be fun! I'll bring my drums.
ReplyDeleteHey Rebecca! Thanks, it was fun cobbling them together. And yes, it must be a huge thing to wonder about as they stand poised for the future.
Hey Matthew! From one pain in the arse to another, I salute you, Sir.
Thanks one and all! Indigo
Nothing like a good bit of introspection to make us realise who we are, how far we've travelled and how far there is to go.
ReplyDeleteIndigo...you're too sweet to be a paint in the ass (hard to say arse living in the US... it doesn't really flow off the tongue...)
ReplyDeleteBeing "a decent enough fella" is a pretty good accomplishment, actually.
ReplyDeleteHey 'Difficult! Far to go? Oh my, yes. You'd think I'd have learned all the useful lessons and skills by now. Sadly, not the case.
ReplyDeleteHey Jen! Arse is a noble English word. It can, if required, be used as a standalone expletive. Many's the time you'll find me cursing "arse! Arse! ARSE!". And thank you, but I'm not very sweet; there's witnesses.
Hi Blissed-Out! I'm told this is true, but I'm all too aware of my shortcomings. Decent enough, but badly flawed might be kindest and most honest.
Thanks one and all! Indigo
All in all, I'd say you're aging quite gracefully... being a decent enough fella is a rarity these days!
ReplyDeleteWHAT HAPPENED TO ALL THAT HAIR, INDIGO?! No, don't tell me. ;)
ReplyDeleteShortcomings are a lot shorter when one realizes them, I believe. :D Good post.
Hey CatLady! I've said it before, you are a woman of wit and discretion. And just a little bit crazy. Actually, I'm hoping that my looks will improve as I get older. If they don't, I'm screwed.
ReplyDeleteHey Scott! I grew the hair to shake off a alleged square image. This generally worked, but it was a relationsip-free zone. The day after I got it all cut off? Got asked out by a nice girl who'd always liked me but hated the long hair. Go figure.
And yes, I have a long list of shortcomings.
Thanks to you both! Indigo
Give over - you're cool and there's a part of you that that loves it :)
ReplyDeleteReg on the other hand - a pain in the arse
Indigo,
ReplyDeleteI sometimes miss not knowing everything.
xoxo
I love your list! It matches my real list that I did not post :)
ReplyDeleteAnd wow on the weight loss! You are amazing!
P.S- I LOVE the pictures of you. You are so handsome!
xoxox
Hey Robbie! Thank you! I just had a t-shirt printed which says, Robbie thinks I'm cool. Many have stopped and commented, and said nice things about you, their favourite Alpha Geek. They then ask me who I am. Hmmm. Lessons.
ReplyDeleteHey Ms. Fin! Yeah, the certainty was a rock, and a rush. I'm better grounded these days, if a little loopier.
Hey Kato! Bless you, but I'm a photoshopped miracle. That said, can I get a bottle of whatever you're drinking for the UK market, please? They just don't see it the same way.
*sigh*
Thanks one and all! Indigo
I cringe when I think how much an idiot I was in my teens and twenties. Probably even into my 30s. Now that I'm in my 40s, all I can do is try to minimise the stupidity. Pretty useless at that too.
ReplyDeleteTen years from now I hope I'm still reading more adventures of Indigo, iDifficult, Bear, King and the badger.
ReplyDeleteEveryone is a pain in the arse in their own unique way. At least you own up to it. Some people genuinely think they're perfect (we all know these people, and they're fankin' annoying).
ReplyDeleteAlso, congrats on the dieting thing.
Hey Madame! Our Forties are a period of damage control? That's rather neat; I'll make a note of it. I must confess I'm trying to get my own life back on an even keel in many respects, and minimal fallout would be a good goal. Thanks!
ReplyDeleteHey CatLady! Me too, whether its here or as a book. Besides, I have to live through it all, and blogging is cheaper than therapy.
Hey Britta! Welcome back! Yes, all true. And my own confession changes nothing about me. As for diets, the "new lifestyle" is chugging along happily. Though I sigh more than I used to, and dream of chocolate occasionally. By the way, you were my 6,000-th "unique visit", so thank you!
Thanks one and all! Indigo